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So, Happy New Year! It's Those who've been communicating with me for
the past few weeks, know that I seem to be in a
period of transition. Mike and I have been talking a lot about our near to
immediate future. Let's just say, I'm ready for a job change. :-) More on
that as our plans progress. In the meantime, it's
January 1st… time for resolutions. There are SO MANY things I want to
change/improve/work on in my life. I know if I try to list the things I want
to change, I'll get overwhelmed and just freeze. But yesterday, I had an idea. A lot of the things
may be worked on by the use of one simple premise. Be In The Moment. Let's say, for example, that I want to improve
my eating habits. Well, if I'm "in the moment" then I'm aware of
everything I put in my mouth. It means, each food
and drink I take in resulted from a conscious decision to add that to my
body. So rather than just grabbing a handful of chips 'cause I have the munchies, or downing half a soda 'cause I'm thirsty, I
will BE IN THE MOMENT. I will be there and think about what I'm doing. I also want to create less clutter in the
house. So instead of coming into the house and just throwing things down
'cause I'm so tired, etc… I stay IN THE MOMENT and place things where they
should be, hang coats up, put shoes on the shoe rack, deal with mail, and
THEN relax. Well, here's hoping. I have a few things ready to eat today and
then later I can make a grocery list and food plan so I'm not caught
unprepared. Half (if not more) of the time, I eat garbage food because I'm
not prepared. Well, time for my relaxing morning coffee and
then I start work on the house. Today, I am working on "middle
earth"… the floor under the upstairs and above the basement… it consists
of living room, computer room, and kitchen. Wish me luck! Little muses today… I was mentioning to my friend today that while
working on this last necklace that I made (still have to photo it tonight…
sorry), I had a mini epiphany about something. So here’s how it started: I laid out the beads
for a necklace I wanted to make, but when I strung it up, it wasn’t sitting
right. Ick! The solution was for me to add very
tiny seed and You see, it took me four hours to string this
very simple two strand necklace. That is unacceptable. But WHY did it take me
so long? Well, most of that reason is that for every seed bead I got onto the
necklace, there were about 4-5 more that were sitting in my lap. Yep, for
every bead that made it onto my string, there were almost
half a dozen more that I had TRIED to get onto the necklace. Why were
they in my lap? Because my fingers couldn’t hold onto them… my carpel tunnel
issue is so bad in my right (dominant) hand that I virtually have no feeling
in my thumb, index, and middle finger (well, first there’s excruciating pain,
then it turns into no feeling). Anyway, I’m not here to complain, I was merely
mentioning this because, in light of THAT occurrence, something came to my
mind. You see, I knew that I didn’t like working
with seed beads when designing jewelry, but I never really thought about
there being a reason for it. But now I see there is a very distinct reason. Hmph! And… the epiphany part came when I realized I
tend to do this with other things… When I left my last husband, if someone asked
me why, all I could say at the time was that I wasn’t happy. Which, to me, is more than enough reason to end a relationship.
Oh my gosh, what is the point of “sticking it out”
in any relationship (friends or marriage) if you’re not happy? I mean, I
don’t advocate bailing at the first argument, but over time you should get a
pretty good sense of if you’re happy or not. Anyway, the point is that yes, I knew I wasn’t
happy, but I couldn’t articulate why… not right away, at least. About six
months after the separation, things started cluing me in… I was able to
identify, from a distance then, and with different perspectives, things like
critical and controlling behavior. No need to go into the details; that’s not
the point of this entry. I’m merely pointing out that sometimes we KNOW
something before we know WHY. So, I knew I didn’t like working with seed
beads, and it was years later that I realized why… because I can’t hold the
beads. And I knew I wasn’t happy in my last
relationship, but it was years later before I recognized the critical and
pessimistic personality I was trying to share a life with. And the third thing that I recently discovered
is why I consider myself “not a phone person”. Yep, I hate talking on the
phone. But now at least I know why… Most of it stems from the fact that I
have some hearing issues… so not being able to see someone’s mouth while
they’re talking can make it VERY difficult for me to understand what they’re
saying. And asking someone to repeat themselves constantly tends to annoy
most normally even-keeled people. Ha! Okay, so that’s the end of THAT thought. Now, last subject… merely has to do with my
baby. One of my babies anyway. Last night after hockey practice, another
group of adults came up to Gabe and asked if he could stay and goalie for
them as their own goalie got injured. Previous when he did this, it was for a
Silver team. Last night it was for a Gold team. He said yes and he took them
to a 6-4 win (after playing his own hour and a half practice just prior to
the game). They were happy, though, 'cause it counts for their standings...
It was a regular league game for them. Anyway, I'm proud of my little 14-year
old. |